failed my drug assessment ie. can't do drugs yet ie. not quite qualified. reason for failure: too slow, not in control... i just don't know. perhaps i'm just `thick'. i don't see the reason to rush the drug rounds which obviously didn't go down well with my preceptor/assessor. anyway, i've kinda suss her out. there is no point in me getting annoyed or depressed about this. a lot depends on her mood. what i could do to speed things up is perhaps to stop checking the expiry date repeatedly, well at least in my next drug assessment. as long as i make her happy, i'm pretty sure she will sign me off. weird isn't it? this sorta assessment has become a tool of power. anyway, it just proves my long held belief that the health care system is so power mad and very hierachical despite all the best effort to prevent task based work which happened in the old days ie. student nurses - wash patients, new junior nurses - obs, senior nurses - administer drug, sisters - IVI perhaps etc.. well, i'm exagerating a bit of course but hey, this is still happening now! all in the name of clinical skills. it's just so difficult to see how a junior staff nurse can progress according to their ability. on my ward at least, u wait and take your turn. if it takes the sister twenty years to get to where she is now, that's exactly if not more the time that u r supposed to take to get to that position, kabish!!
anyway, looking on the bright side, i think and i hope i'll just persevere and get myself signed off at the end of my supposedly six month preceptorship. and play dumb, do as u r told and i think i'll be fine. sad really but hey, a man gotto do what a man gotto do, eh?
what else was i going to say, o yes, the bloody uniform. i cannot believe the people ordering the uniform is also trying to make my life difficult. now, i've got one set of new uniform, received after waiting for 3 fcuking months, opps, apologies for swearing. and one set was witheld till i gave back the ones they loan to me. there is no point talking about infection control to them. how on earth am i supposed to wash, dry and iron my uniform with only two sets of uniform when working 4 nights in a row is beyond me and apparently this is trust policy. what the %^&!! no one seems to complain. people just wear old uniform to work. and then we complain about MRSA etc.. i dunno.
now, looking on the bright side again, i shall try and pester the ward manager if she would sign the form for more sets of uniform for me. fingers crossed. i just don't understand why i have to chase after people about my uniform. is my life not stressful enough??
anyway, another thing to look forward to, i'm now officially an OU student. just registered myself on a couple of psychology modules. yes, i might be taking on too much here but it's a way for me to not get too stressed about work/people or i should say fcking people and do i what i want to do, that is to study - yes, and maybe have another change in career perhaps. very much doubt so but hey, whatever that makes me happy. besides, it's something to take my mind off things that depress me. now then, i suppose this will backfire if i manage to flunk my assignment or exam lol. haven't sat for exam for yonks now, lol
right, better stop here now as i've just been ping in the chatroom.